Most recently i have undergone surgery on my eyes, It has been an adventure. My eye prescription was very strong, I would dare to say that I was legally blind without the aid of contacts or glasses. So having this surgery has been life changing except that I haven’t completely healed from it.
Which brings me to my next post. So as my eyes are recovering I now don’t see facial features very well. When I’m looking at someones face I don’t see eye movements, I can see the colors in others eyes; I can’t even see their lips move. And I have to tell you when you don’t see faces, communication is so empty. In my point of view, when you can’t see the person you are talking to you miss so much of the conversation that actually keeps one focused.
Think about and just watch where your eyes fall and what you tend to notice while you are having a conversation.
The bond that humans have with one another is so strange yet so amazing. How one can remember their first love; and not just their name and face but the way they moved their hair from there face, the way they carry themselves, even remembering some of the corky things that they do. A while back I was approached by a woman that happen to have been one of my Father’s ex-girlfriends. And after sizing her up we have come to communicate with each other very often and the stories that she told me was so eye opening. I have never seen my father in that sort of light before. What truly opened my eyes is the love that this woman still has for my father. She remembers the way he stutters, which he still does, when he gets mad. She remembers how determined he was to his school work, how head strong and stubborn he was. It was incredible because she was describing a father I once knew. As the oldest in my family I saw how my father changed over the years and how the same traits that he exhibited when he was in high school and in my first years in life didn’t all continue on when the rest of my siblings came along. She remembered how he cut his hair and how she was so in love with him and that sad day when it came to a close and my father left her for my mother.
Is it the contact that we have with someone physically? As if to say that one hand hold would last several years. I know that the sense of smell is linked very close to memory and something like your mother’s pancakes or the smell of your partners hair could trigger that chemical imbalance, that in essence brings you back to that moment.
But what if you don’t feel that? Are you considered heartless because of it?…….NO, you’re not heartless.
I’m sorry for all of you that seems to have a moment for every little thing. I know that it’s by the small moments in our lives and how we react to them is how we evolve as a person, but what I’m trying to say is don’t make out every little to be a huge moment. Just remember that life is supposed to be understood.
The voice of Prime
Have you ever done anything that was out of comfort zone? How did it make you feel? Does your heart race? Do your hands get sweaty? I love that feeling! To be doing something different, something that I have never done before.
I remembered after a boy scout camping trip feeling the overwhelming desire for new exciting things. On this camp out we went to Moab, Utah. There we white water rafted, slept under the stars, and engaged in slick rock bicycling.
The day we went bicycling was a day I will never forget. We began our journey thinking that we would be riding a short forty five minute trip but about thirty minutes in our ride we realized that this was going to be harder then we all thouht. At the begining of the ride we were riding by a huge clift side when are train of bicycles stop suddenly, I lose my balance and almost fall down the clift side. My heart was racing, for a second I didn’t want to get back on my bike but I couldn’t chicken out with my friends watching. As the hot Moab sun was beaming on our bodies we quickly realized that we did not bring enough water for our trip. After an hour of peddling a boy asked “how long is this ride suppose to be”? With a reply of “this ride was suppose to be only forty five minutes”. As the two hour ride continued we would hide under rocks for shade and to rest our legs, our water was gone long before we realized that that we have taken the wrong path. It was hard but as I layed on the hard ground that night I was so happy that i pushed myself harder then I have ever before. I did something that most people haven’t and I beat it!
Since that experience I have tried to challege myself in everything, to she how smart iam how quick I can be and how much pressure I can indure.
Today I’m begining my training to see if I’m even capable of being a para-rescuer. I have a slight fear of the water and the hardest part of the test is to complete a 500 meter swim with a 200 meter under water swim.
I have this phase that I use to desribe myself: I’m not smart but I’m determined! Which basically means that I don’t always complete my task perfectly the first time but I will work my hardest to get myself to that level of completion.
Well wish Prime luck! And do something out of your norm today!
The voice of Prime
Since I can ever remember i was consistintly reminded of where I was from, which is Haiti. A third world country that lies in the carribean and shares the island with Domincan Republic. Haiti was once know as the jewel of the carribean but as the years passed on, Haiti has seem to have lost it’s luster. Haiti was hit with a devistating earthquake through the captial of Port-au-Prince on January the 12th 2010. The distruction is hard to bear and very sad but what amazes me is my out look to the situation.
From a young age whenever I asked about Haiti my parents would only tell me of how sad it is and how the government is basically non existing of the poverty and the lack of education. The majority of the people live in poverty while a small percent (let then .01%) live in wealth. Many of the people do not have a education, for many years the literacy rate of this country has been on a declined. For those that are able to get a visa they leave the country in search of the education and a chance of a better life for themselves, and their family.
Now with these things rolling through your mind how can you see a bright future for this poor infortunite country? what will happen to this people? do you think that Haiti can get itself out of this situation? Because sadly I don’t think Haiti has the strength or the resources to pull itself from the ashes of this tragety.
Voice of Prime.
One of the reasons that I started to write prime philosophy is to share my experiences as a student. The challeges of working, going to school, dating, while trying to get a good education. For me, as some of you can tell, am not the best writer but I wanted to improve my writing while also testing out new ways of expressing myself. Sometimes you have to step out side of your comfort zone.
So one day i was thinking to myself. “What is one thing that is needed for an education”, Money! Tuition is a killer. Then there are books and lab fees, parking passes…..well you get the point. So after paying for college. It’s a wonder how I’m able to eat durning the first month of each semester. It was just starting to get old for me! I needed a change! School is just repetitive going from semester to semester just working for a grade.
My goal in life is to graduate with a docturate in Psychology. This is not an easy task, but I’m definitly up to it.
So it comes to what I wanted to talk about. I have just enlisted for the military to help with my educational goals. The branch I choose was the Air Force. I think that this is a great idea but others would beg to differ. Many of my friends are unhappy with my decision and they are trying to get me to stay.
So my question to you is what would you do in my situation?
The voice of Prime
Happy New Year guys! I just wanted to write a little about girls. So as I was going through this christmas vacation just thinking about the girls that I date. I’m not going to lie, the girls I have been dating are very high quality to my standards. They are smart, resourceful, and beautiful. I have tons of fun dating and hanging out with these girls bit I don’t wish to date right now and some of the girls just can’t take the hint.
Guys and Girls are the same when it comes to dating. We both are shallow when it comes to appearance we both have an over active sex drive. Guys and girls just express threir desires differently. I have made it to the point where I don’t really feel any emotion when it comes to the first couple of interaction with the opposite sex. I feel like it’s just a waste of energy to get your hopes up everytime you get a wink from the opposite sex.
My thoughts are that you play the field and just wait for the person that is heading the same direction as you. You will find them….I believe that!
From the voice of Prime.
There is so much that goes into a college class. I was just amazed at how my emotions has regressed me in my schooling…. just for a second. For instance I took a test in my Bio class and because my mind was on other things I didn’t get the grade in which I know that I could have gotten.
For me to be an effective student I have to have my life in line my affairs need to be settled and I have to have my primary necessities taken care of.
In the institute there is going to be a great push to inform the meeting houses near the University to invite their student to come to institute, which is a place that student can be taught about God and to get that extra strength to go through out the week. The is a huge project in which my committee and I will be opening my time on Sundays to teach, testify and inform others to make institute a priority.
It is going to be great. I’m still thinking of what I want to do a research project for my undergrad. I’m going to start it the next year so that I can get into a good grad school. I’m going back to New York!
-Prime
I’m now a Sophomore working for my two year degree at Utah Valley University. My plans are to receive a PH.D from New York University, I want badly to go to school back in New York. My field of interest is Psychology and I hope to become a Psychologist one day. My plans also encompass me teaching college age adults. I love to teach and I love to learn.
I’m still taking my general education classes but I will be through those by the end of this year.
I also assist in a church calling for the Orem Institute of Religion which is part of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, of Which I am a member of. For the Institute I’m over Enrollment with one of my good friends. We are planning on enrolling 2010 more students for this school year!
I love keeping myself busy and I do with 15 credits and working on the council.
The voice of Prime
Well I was just reading on some other blogs, I guess these guys had made a living on just writing on their blogs and sharing their personal experiences. That make since because more people can relate to you through those experiences.
So I made a resolution to do better on my blog and to share more of my experiences the good with the bad and everything in between.
I’m going to shy away from the question asking post to more of what I’m doing to get my PH.D and everything that come with living a college life.
The Voice of Prime
Think of this! What is your happiest moment? Of course its different for everyone, but what I love about happy moments is that it can change honestly from one day to another. For instance a teenage girl that has been waiting for a guy to notice her finally gets the recognition that she has been waiting for; while that same day a couple are exchanging vows from an alter. Down the street there is a couple looking into the eyes of a child that they have been waiting nine months to see, and for that instant the babe looks up pleased as if he or she has been waiting a life time to see them also.
What makes a happy moment? For some it might be a simple smile that can drive the darkness out of ones heart. It can be succeeding in something that one has been anticipated for sometime now. Even for me I just feel happy if I go and try my best. Yeah, some might say that is a loser’s attitude but either way… me trying is just awesome for me.
What makes a moment the Happiest? I believe that it has to have a sense of mystery or an unexpected nature to it. With my happiest moments it always seem to be something that I’m longing for that I’m not expecting to happen, then like clock work it falls into place. At those time I know that God is watching out for me, because it seems almost unbelievable….it feels like it was a gift given to me.
Now think about your wonderful happy moments and be grateful for even the small things in which you have.
From the Voice of Prime